Monday, October 29, 2012

Adjusting..

My new role as.. a mummy of two.. :)
Kadang2.. bila bangun tido, tergelak sensorang. How i did i get here?
I'm a clumsy / careless / forgetful person.. How can i take care of my babies.. Hehe..
Tapi Alhamdulillah, Allah maha Kaya.. despite of what i am, tak pernah lagi aku terlupa pasal baby. Kihkih.. Pernah jadi kat kawan Ted, diorang dah bersiap nak pergi kenduri, sekali baby tertinggal kat dalam.. T_T nasib baik tak start kereta lagi dah teringat.. hehe.. aduihh..

Sekarang ni, definitely kena double up my speed of doing my tasks. And of course double my patient.. Baru start kemas, kakak iman dah main sepah2. Baru nak buat kerja, adik q dah nangis nak susu. Baru nak makan, adik nangis nak dokong, kakak ajak main. Hehe. Mmg kejam, but on weekdays i have to send kakak to school. Kalau tak memang tak berkemas la rumah ni. Alhamdulillah jugak papa rajin tolong. Almaklumlah, sejak bersalin 2 kali ni makin cepat terlupa. Setiap hari bangun pagi kena buat mental note untuk 'to do list'. Kalau tak, rasa macam takde benda nak buat, skali rupanya banyak benda tak buat lagi. Aduih.. maybe 2 kali bersalin, banyak urat ingatan dah terputus.. haha..

As a bf mummy, lagilah routine bertukar.. Kena allocate at least 40 mins x 4 times untuk pumping session. itupun slalu kantoi.. Haiyohh.. itupun still rasa macam tak cukup stock utk after naik kerja.. iskkk.. ini pun dah start campur formula milk, huhu.. tapi only kalau keluar lelama pergi banyak tempat.. huhu.. Ya Allah, tabahkan hati hambamu ini.

Lepas ni lagi kena adjust as a working mummy of two. Hopefully boleh adjust secepat mungkin. Takkan hari2 nak pegi keje ngan mata panda.. dahla tengah banyak keja skang ni.. kesian my team kat opis.. kena cover my part. huhu.. harapan nak rehat.. jangan terlalu berharap.. haha.. ok q dah bangun babai..

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Happy Anniversary Encik Ted :)

We began as strangers. We become friends. We became one with each other... 
Wish We'll remain as one forever until Jannah. 

How wonderful to have you in my life! All my feelings whirl about my heart!
Perhaps I can't contain that I'm your wife; Perhaps I don't know how or where to start.

You have me always, no matter what you do: A gift I give my gift, joyously.
Nothing means as much to me as you; Nothing else so fully makes me, me.


Happy 3rd Anniversary, Luv :)

Please know, u always.. always have my heart..
I can be very challenging for you to handle.. but thank you for always be there for me.. 
I love u.. huhu..


Monday, October 15, 2012

3 years and counting :)

Alhamdulillah.. Insya Allah tomorrow will be our 3rd wedding anniversary..
Too bad Ted will be going for outstation meeting tomorrow till Thursday :P Kejam u boss! haha..

2010 - Celebration with Lil Iman :)
2011 - Mini Celebration @ Costa Cafe, Bath, UK :)
2012 - Celebration with Lil Iman & Lil Q :) Insya Allah..

Esok lah citer lagi.. hari ni nak layan perasaan boss die kejam suh out station lelame.. huh!

On a positive note.. Today is day 40.. Another 4 days to go.. after that.. Merdeka.. Yahhooo!! Hahaha.. Tak sabar nak balik rumah.. bila dah ade rumah sendiri (walaupun kecik & rumah sewa), balik umah mak pun dok teringat rumah sendiri kan.. huhu...  

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Road to Teh Ais - Day 35

9 days to go.. hikhikhik..
I know some people berpantang ais up to 100 days and some up to 1 year.. But i dun think i'm tough enough to follow that... Heheh.. InsyaAllah depend on baby q.. If he's ok with me drinking ice, then it means i'll definitely stop pantang at 44 days.. hahaha.. if not, then i'll berpantang until i stop breastfeeding him...
Hahah keyakinan tinggi.. Ya Allah... tetapkan keazaman ku untuk breastfeed Lil Iqram sehingga 2 tahun.. jangan aku patah semangat macam mase kakaknye dulu.. Amin.. hehe

Kali ni punya berpantang.. xterasa sangat.. cuma mengira mase tu yang rase lame... hehe.. Time ni lah rase masa berputar agak slow.. walaupun, eh eh dah hari Rabu & lagi 9 hari nak abeh pantang.. hehe...
Overall Baby q dah ade patern/routine sendiri.. huhu.. paling mummy tak sanggup, siang tido (best sbb mummy leh buat keje i.e tgk tv, bace buku, online) and malam kang kul 10 - 2 pagi die pun segar biji mate... Kalau sihat die tak banyak ragam.. terkebil2 mate pandang mummy/siling.. budak2 kan suke pandang atas.. kalau perasan aku 'raup' mate die suh pandang depan.. hehe.. kalau tgh tak sihat tu 'ek..ek..ek'.. huhu.. pastu tido mesti nak atas tangan mummy.. abehlah balik umah nnt macam mane la dengan akak lagi... takkan papa nak kene tido bawah macam kat umah wema kot.. hehehe... kesianlah mummy ngan papa.. :P

Benda yang i baru discover tapi xsure.. baby macam sensitive to dairy product.. kalau aku minum milo 3-in-1 or makan cheese, mesti die buang air cair.. huhu.. wahhh mummy ade harapan nak kurusla kalau tak minum susu & amek cheese.. hahaha.. :P tapiii kalau lactose intolerance.. bermakna.. kena fully breastfeed and kalau nak campur formula pun kene isomil.. hurm.. takpe kita monitor dulu macam mane.. hehe.. tapiii lagi.. minum susu enfalac kene sembelit pulak.. Aduihh.. cabaran sungguh. Takpelah.. janji anak mummy sihat    :)

Berpantang kali ni aku bertungku 3 hari jer. kahkahkah.. itupun sbb makcik urut tu bawak tungku die.. tungku kat umah ni dah kena baling, haha.. nk beli tungku moden tunggu papa baby nak beli dari start pantang sampai ke hari 35 tak nampak bayang lagi.. kihkih.. jadi aku pasrah jelah pakai param ngan losyen panas... Alhamdulillah setakat lenguh2 jelah.. takpe, lepas pantang nnt nak mandi sauna.. kihkih.. Param & pilis dipakai dengan jayanya.. Jamu baru makan sehari tapi pastu baby cam sakit perut (tak pasti sbb susu enfalac/me minum 3-in-1 ke sbb jamu) sbb time tu semua2 ni pun makan.. jadiknya nak monitor dulu.. Kesian baby, dah 3 hari sakit perut.. nak kentut je muke dah start cam menteri pasola.. sembelit lagi.. tadi pegi klinik, amek ubat colic, pastu doc suruh teruskan breastfeed sehingga baik... Hopefully esok dah baik dah.. lepas ni takleh dah bagi susu enfalac tu dulu... huhu..

Makanan dalam pantang.. breakfast- milo, biskut butter (up sikit dulu makan biskut hup seng jer), n garlic toast sekeping. Lunch - nasik + ikan tenggiri/dory + sayur (kadang2). Teatime cum dinner - biskut & milo. Supper - Biskut & milo. Dengan harapan berat cepat sikit turun.. heheh... Sekarang dah dapat turunkan berat.. before pregnant 76kg. now dah 73.7kg.. Tapi, nak turunkan berat before pregnantkan Lil Iman tu yang masih jauh lagi.. huhuhhh... tulah lemak dah 2 tahun lebih bertapa dalam badan tu yang susah nak ilang tu.. huhu... insyaAllah.. sy positif.. dengan berkat breastfeed ni & doa kengkawan.. saya pasti berjaya.. hahaha.. target 57kgs in 5 months.. 1 month down, another 4month to go.. heheh... hopefully semangat ni kekal laa sampai dapat berat tu,.. haha..

Okielah.. just a quick update.. sekarang dah potong kuku boleh taip dengan pantas.. Ni nak kembali ke alam ibu sedang berpantang.. hehe.. :)

Friday, October 5, 2012

Kekuatan Doa

Huhu.. dihari Jumaat ni, just wanna share something yang sangat terkesan kat aku dalam pregnancy journey kali ni..

Doa.. Sesungguhnya doa adalah kekuatan orang Mukmin..
Alhamdulillah, aku tak alami sebarang complication throughout this pregnancy. Cuma 1.. baby besar/berat.. Hehe.. kesan daripada mummy yang makan tak ingat donia.. Huhu...

Perasan tak dalam last entry, i was supposed to go for induced procedure on the day he born.. But Alhamdulillah, dengan izin-Nya Iqram was born without me going through the procedure..

Entahlah, honestly, i can't remember the last time aku berdoa bersungguh-sungguh macam ni.. Perhaps, masa Mama masuk hospital last couple of years and masa nak exam dulu2... shame me..
Tapi, bila tau je date nak kena induced, start then aku berdoa supaya Allah turunkan miracle.. Ya Allah, betapa aku malu sebenarnya.. Dahla aku ni bukanlah istiqamah sangat beribadah nih.. nak settlekan yang wajib pun kadang2 lambat, kadang2 kantoi.. Tapi sesungguhnya Allah tu Maha Kaya, Maha Pengampun dan Maha Penyayang...

Aku pun tak ingat last time aku berdoa/solat sampai nangis2 camnih... Masa tu, aku ingat lagi.. Setiap kali aku takut, i'll recite Ayatul Qursi.. Pastu baca Yassin everyday, solat Taubat & Hajat.. Baca doa permudahkan bersalin.. Alhamdulillah, Allah makbulkan doa aku untuk go through delivery without induced. Alhamdulillah.. syukur sangat.. Aku buat post ni kali ni bukan ada niat apa2.. just to remind me & perhaps you.. yang sesungguhnya Allah tu ada untuk kita.. Ya Allah.. terima kasih atas pemberian ini & janganlah kau tarik nikmat ini dari kami hamba mu Ya Allah... Semoga aku takkan lupa untuk sentiasa bersyukur & berdoa.. Amin..

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Gande 3... [3 (34) pm, 6/9/12]

Iqram decided to make a remarkable entrance to the world.. hehe..
He decided to have a beautiful set of numbers for his birth.. 3.34pm, 6 Sept 2012. Sumer angka ganda 3.. hehe..

Betullah orang cakap.. Different pregnancy holds different stories / journey. Hehe.. tapi yang tu nnt kite kupas dalam siri yang akan datang :P
Today, nak share journey kelahiran Iqram :) Hehe.. Okie, since Lil Iman lahir 38 weeks, so we all mmg prepare mentally Iqram will be coming out earlier as well.
And then, tambahan pulak hari Khamis before Raya aritu i had false alarm.. Pegi hospital, ada contraction tapi it was still early as i was only 34/35 weeks. So, takut pre-matured.. Dr checked, i was only 1cm dilated, tapi uri dah matang and baby pun besar (3.4kgs). Dr suggested to be admitted. Of course la tak nak... dahla nak raye.. huwaa.. Then balik... And be prepared, in case baby keluar during hari raya.. First day raya, makan banyak2.. haha.. apelah.. sbb takut esok dah nak terbranak.. kihkihkih... tak keluar jugak.. hari2 selepas tu dipenuhi dengan makanan... dahla mmg tgh raya, pastu angah nak belanje lagila apelah... and every time aku terasa nak makan something.. akan usahakan jugak sampai dapat.. haha.. and lepas makan cakap.. ok baby lepas ni boleh keluar... hehe... sampai la ke 3/9 still takde jugak tande nak kuar..

3/9 tu 2nd appointment dengan doc after raya.. Doc dah pesan, if tak bersalin lagi then we'll have to see the option.. sbb kalau tunggu full term, takut baby besar (last week it was 3.8kg), tak boleh nak lahir normal.. Ok. Pagi Isnin tu datang kat klinik Doc dgn keputusan.. If my baby is getting bigger, we'll opt for induced for early labour.. Dr check, oh,.. baby berat 3.5kgs (wahhh diet mummy seminggu sblm appointment berjaya!)
So, Dr bagi option.. Wait for another week or induced.. Sbb baby dah matang, revised EDD was 8/9..
Aku dah berbelah bahagi.. orang kate induced tu sakit giler.. it was forced contraction.. ok, dah decide, kalau sakit then i'll take the epidural.. bincang2 dengan Ted, he asked if i wanna induced for early labour.. 8/9 is Saturday, Dr pun suggest kalau 6/9 hari Khamis..ok, deal. Date pun cantik 6/9 it is. I have to check-in wednesday nite tu n pagi akan masuk ubat induced...

Sepanjang balik daripada hospital tu sampaila ke hari Rabu 5/9 tu.. mmg tak berhenti berdoa.. Ya Allah please let it be miracle that the baby wanna come out before the induce procedure... Setiap malam buat solat hajat.. bace yassin & bila takut je bace ayat kursi berulang2 sampai hilang takut... Ntah macam mane, balik kerja hari Rabu tu Ted tanye.. "u kalau taknak induce takpelah.. kite tunggu baby keluar sendiri.." i was like.. fuhh.. tapi takpe ke tak dtg sane mlm ni... masih berpikir2.. at last after solat magrib, decided taknak pegi spital.. takut wwoooo..hahah.. giler kau kene pakse contraction.. sedangkan contraction yang natural pun dah sakit... iskk.. tapi still xputus doa if baby wanna come early.. sbb if by 8/9 tak keluar pun Doc akan discuss what next jugak... Worst, kena operation. huhu.. xnak.. ngeri!

Then, malam tu terus xlalu makan... balik rumah macam biasa... tetibe dlm kul 3am camtu rase sakit mcm senggugut biase... tapi sbbkan aku mmg slalu kena macam ni sepanjang pregnancy kali ni, so aku rase biase.. maybe false alarm lagi.. aku kene urine infection kot nih.. huhu... malas nak kejut Ted. Yelah, banyak kali die cuti tapi aku tak jadi beranak... lagi pun rase die tak kuat sgt and sela masa pun panjang... pagi tu kul 6 kejut Ted. Mintak tolong urutkan perut & pelvic area. Pukul 8lebih tu bangun tido (mmg patut nak cuti haritu sbb patut nak inducekan) rase lagi.. tapi ckp kat Ted.. takpe i pergi dulu.. kalau betul nak beranak i call u.. hehe.. tapi dalam pade nak gosok baju pun aku dok tahan2 sakit mcm senggugut tu... kali ni dah rase kuat sikit... tp still gagah lagi sbb sela mase jauh2... Lepas siap2.. hantar Iman rumah Tokma sbb nk pegi Spital.. Eh.. jap u.. kite g breakfast dulu.. kalo masuk labour room kang dah takleh makan... Pegila makan nasik lemak kerang favorite n air milo panas..

Sampai kat spital, terus masuk labour room.. nurse check.. ok rasenya bersalin hari ni, sbb dah bukak 4/5cm.. wow... time tu kul 10.. tapi... lepas nurse tu kuar.. contraction tak dtg2.. hehe.. sekali je.. lps tu dah diam jer... huhu... nurse bagi ubat lawas and datang check sekejap2.. kalau tak bukak lagi jugak nnt nak masuk ubat cepatkan contraction.. ok..

Pukul 12, baru bukak 6cm.. Okie, nurse pecahkan waterbag.. Time ni nurse tanye, nak tak pain killer.. Nak la kak.. sambil muke high gas.. Hahaha... And then, pukul 1 lebih, nurse datang check.. uiks.. baru 7cm ni.. die pun masukkan ubat cepatkan contraction.. And after that... bermula lah episode contraction datang bertalu2.. by 3 something, nurse dah dtg kemas2 check dah 9cm.. Alhamdulillah Dr. Ariza dah balik meeting.. hehe.. jadi bolehla die sambut baby. If not, kena sambut dengan Dr lelaki (forgot the name).. Malula ii.. hehe..

It was like 5/6 sets of failing push.. haha.. aku lupe nak belajar balik care nak push.. so, salah push.. huhuhu (T_T) last2 sekali minum air sikit pastu ikut cakap nurse and push... Wow.. Alhamdulillah... Rase ade benda panas atas badan... yeahh!! At first pandang baby.. wow.. birat & besar.. hehehe.. lepas nurse dah lap2 sikit.. terus die angkat nak amik ukuran kan... pehh.. it was 4.03kgs and diameter kepala 36cm.. uhuks uhuks.. patutla mummy macam nak pengsan push... tinggi 52cm.. aishh kalah dengan kakak Iman.. tapi xper.. Baby jadik pemain bola ok.. hehe.. Lepas baby dah kuar, nak kena keluarkan uri pulak.. huhu.. dan darah beku.. wah... aku still takut2 lagi.. ehehe.. bile dah settle semua, doc pun jalankan upacara menjahit.. hehe.. wuihh ngeri... corong gas dah kemana.. takleh aku nak sedut... kali ni terasa jugakla die cam tertarik2.. huhuhu...

This time, i decided to breastfeed baby all along.. baby pun sekejap2 nak minum sekejap2 nak minum.. on the second day tu dah nampak tanda nak kuning.. yelah, susu pun xbyk lagi kan.. then on the 3rd day tu mmg hari nak balik.. nursery check baby kena jaundice.. 11.2.. so, boleh decide nak bawak balik ke nak terus admit.. bawak balik dululah... huhu.. so bawakla balik dulu on the Saturday... Monday tu datang balik check, 14.5.. aduhhh.. makin naik.. kita admit jelah baby k.. boleh mummy keluar hari2 nak lawat baby... and baby minum susu formula dulu sbb tak cukup feeding & mummy nk baby cepat balik... hari Selasa, reading 14.6.. Ya Allah.. hari Rabu dah turun balik 10.7.. wow! banyaknye turun.. doc nak monitor lagi.. khamis tu dah 9.6.. yeay.. boleh keluar.. Alhamdulillah.. and now baby dah totally clear from jaundice.. mata pun dah clear.. :)

Baby Q :)

 
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