Baby Q

Huhu... Adik Q never get the spotlight like his sister in here. Sorry baby.. Ever since i had the instagram. i forgot all about blogging.. And mummy put loads of your photos in there..

Cian adik.. he's been having a hard time these few weeks. i dunno is it adjusting time or what..
Starting with diarrhea pastu dah ok, batuk pulak, then repeat diarrhea, then now, he just recovered from measles.. but the coughing are still here... Been thinking of bringing him to hospital, but we give until this Sunday if still not ok then APSH here we come!

Adik currently starting to crawl.. baru 3 langkah ke depan.... sooo cute! Muahh Adik Q.. nnt mummy ade mase & motivasi, mummy akan update pasal u yer.. :)

Hello testing

Testing.. It wud be easier to update my blog now.. Hahaha..

Hope...

Hi There...
2012 last in few hours.. Then, we'll be entering 2013.
Huhuh.. To the 'Doomsday Preppers'.. Gud Luck & Continue with your preparation.. hehe :P

Papa will be 63 tomorrow! Happy Birthday Papa :)
Me & Ted will turned 31 next year..

 2012 taught me life. Taught me lesson of Life.. Many things happened in 2012..
Good & Not-so-Good..
Haa.. Iqram was born last September 2012! Hi Iqram! :) Hahaha.. Padahal hari2 jumpa kat rumah...
Our salary been upgraded.. Haha.. Alhamdulillah. :) More money coming means we have to save more... My debt to Mama was done this December! Yeay.. Alhamdulillah.. Finally 1 hole closed, another few to go.. Hahaha... Mann!!

I managed to go to the BBW on the 1am final Sunday.. My takes for next year: Visit earlier & without Kids. We went the final weeks and with Iman.. ohh.. most fav /popular titles were gone & i can't concentrate searching the books.. Hehehe..

We managed to fill in 2 boxes, (except for A Doctor in The House & The Extermination Years)

Okay, my hope in 2013...
1. To be all positive! (Hahaha... Teetttt!!! Cliche!): But it's true.. I need to put all the negative aura and things behind & live my life positively.. I'm done with my misery (hahah!) and ready to move on!
You see... i may not be a pendendam in many things. Tapi there a certain things that leave a deep scar & i found it impossible to forget! Ya Allah.. berikanlah kekuatan kepada hambamu ini.. That's it! 2013 in mind-cleansing year! ahahah

2. To be 16kgs lighter (continue from 3 previous years) (hahaha.. Cliche lagi.. Nexttt!!!) Hahaha... Yupe. Tomorrow will gonna be a starting day for my crash-fullforce-diet program! I'm all In! Bring it On!! hahaha.. After Iqram was born, i managed to get my pre-Iqram weight.. even 3 kgs lesser.. but my pre-Iman's weight that my ultimate dream! Please... let it materialised in April 2013!

3. To finally have home. We've been searching high & low for a new house to buy. But, either the house is like retak menanti belah, or the area or the price!! Sigghh!! Only last year, when our loan can only go for RM250k, the house price is RM350k.. Now that our loan can go for RM600k, the price jumped to RM590-700k!! Hellooowww!! how can we keep up and buy a house? Hahaha... Damn u property agents.. you messed up with the house price! We aimed to buy the house by this year.. and that's mean by April 2013 also!

Ok, 3 are enough.. Hahaha... eh ade lagi satu...

4. Holiday!! We extremely need a holiday next year. This year kite duduk diam2.. next year harus pegi jenjalan!! Hahahaha... Where to? Still on the our un-decided list...

Patching Things Up...

Some says.. There always a rainbow after the rain..
Dalam Islam pun menyebut, setiap kesusahan akan dibalas dengan kesenangan..
Aminn..

Alhamdulillah.. last month was the worst month in my life.. Even worst from last year.. I dunno.. I wish I could say, Wake me up when November ends..

Alhamdulillah... I can finally accept the fact.. But, the healing process takes time.. longer than i thought..
As the scars are deeper, it definitely takes some effort to patch things up.. I do Thank Allah for this test. For I may take things for granted. Now, I will always open my eyes and try to do my best for our life.

It hurts a lot and it eating me inside.... I pray that one day, some day, this things will slipped away from my mind and I'll be okay 100% and learn to trust & put hope again..
Until then, I'm gonna live my life as it is.. Huhu.. Now the rain has stopped, i'm waiting for the rainbow and sun to shine.. :)

Tapi.. betullah... Sebesar mana pun dugaan hidup kita.. besar lagi dugaan umat Islam di Gaza..
So, it's nothing compared to what they faced in their daily life..

Al-Fatihah & Pray for all Muslims in Gaza. :)

Listening to the unsung lyrics

Wish i don't have to be here forever,
Wish i could erase this feeling ever,
The feel i'm feeling right now, 
Oh just makes me wanna go down.

Wish i could be by myself,
In my own fantasy world,
Wish i could be strong,
Never had to shed a tear. 

Listening to the unsung lyrics
Was the hardest 
Cause' ur lips could do the tricks
But it's not what u feel the most

I wish this would not be the chorus
I wish this is just a bridge
For a better us..
For whatever it would be..

Let me here by myself,
listening to the unsung lyrics... 

stay in the clouds... :)

Can I please stay in the clouds forever?

‘Cause I really like it here

If they can see what I can see

If they can hear what I can hear

If only they can see what I can see

They would really like it here

Just look at everything in front of you

Then look from above

Come and please stay in the clouds forever

You would really like it here

by: Zee Avi

Adjusting..

My new role as.. a mummy of two.. :)
Kadang2.. bila bangun tido, tergelak sensorang. How i did i get here?
I'm a clumsy / careless / forgetful person.. How can i take care of my babies.. Hehe..
Tapi Alhamdulillah, Allah maha Kaya.. despite of what i am, tak pernah lagi aku terlupa pasal baby. Kihkih.. Pernah jadi kat kawan Ted, diorang dah bersiap nak pergi kenduri, sekali baby tertinggal kat dalam.. T_T nasib baik tak start kereta lagi dah teringat.. hehe.. aduihh..

Sekarang ni, definitely kena double up my speed of doing my tasks. And of course double my patient.. Baru start kemas, kakak iman dah main sepah2. Baru nak buat kerja, adik q dah nangis nak susu. Baru nak makan, adik nangis nak dokong, kakak ajak main. Hehe. Mmg kejam, but on weekdays i have to send kakak to school. Kalau tak memang tak berkemas la rumah ni. Alhamdulillah jugak papa rajin tolong. Almaklumlah, sejak bersalin 2 kali ni makin cepat terlupa. Setiap hari bangun pagi kena buat mental note untuk 'to do list'. Kalau tak, rasa macam takde benda nak buat, skali rupanya banyak benda tak buat lagi. Aduih.. maybe 2 kali bersalin, banyak urat ingatan dah terputus.. haha..

As a bf mummy, lagilah routine bertukar.. Kena allocate at least 40 mins x 4 times untuk pumping session. itupun slalu kantoi.. Haiyohh.. itupun still rasa macam tak cukup stock utk after naik kerja.. iskkk.. ini pun dah start campur formula milk, huhu.. tapi only kalau keluar lelama pergi banyak tempat.. huhu.. Ya Allah, tabahkan hati hambamu ini.

Lepas ni lagi kena adjust as a working mummy of two. Hopefully boleh adjust secepat mungkin. Takkan hari2 nak pegi keje ngan mata panda.. dahla tengah banyak keja skang ni.. kesian my team kat opis.. kena cover my part. huhu.. harapan nak rehat.. jangan terlalu berharap.. haha.. ok q dah bangun babai..