is.it.hormones?

~ PD 2010 ~


These days..

1. I've been thinking about Arwah Abahwe & Makwe (my late grandfather & grandmother)
~ How great if they're still alive to be by myside next July.. As i'm the first granddaughter in the family to get married and pregnant.. Yang termampu, sedekahkan Al-fatihah kepada rohnya semoga dicucuri rahmat..




2. Now that we live separately from our parents.. I've been thinking a lot about Mama & Papa.. Not that they're alone at the house (Angah, nini, ajim & abg still at home).. And sometimes worried for nothing... Mama always called me either Selasa / Rabu (Ted's sport days) and once again on Friday (Another Ted's sport day).. and when she didn't called I will be worried.. Biaselah anak kan.. mesti nak mak call dulu.. huhu... But now, i've improved.. i call her before she called me.. =D tatahhaann windu.. Even nak balik gombak tu sbnrnya just 20 minutes away (traffic lite yg super byk)... but when u have ur own house u tend to drive to ur home (auto-pilot) instead of ur parents house. huhu... And i always love the ideas of being home before Ted. So, i can ala-ala menunggu kepulangan suami terchenta.. hiks.. especially on his sports nites..

Insaf.. entahla.. maybe i'm preparing myself to be a mom.. selalu terfikir, have i done enough to make them happy? Ade satu wish aku untuk mama & papa that doesn't accomplished yet.. Hopefully, next year will be the earliest for me to make it come true... Ya Allah berikanlah aku rezeki yang lebih... Amin.. ;)
There are so many things i wish i could do earlier and i wish i didn't do..

3. Hari-hari nak makan coklat... especially cake! uhhh.. sudah2 leh tu wahai napsu makan ku... Huhu.. fine. i 'kantoi' last check-up.. i successfully gained another 4.5 kgs.. and that allows me to be getting another MGTT test in May/June.. Hahaha... Thank you.. thank you.. i'm trying to cut down my rice intakes.. Please, people out there... Pray for me.. My pretty baby is giving us hint that s/he will come out big if i dun stop eating and gain unnecessary weight..

4. I'm afraid of being left alone at home.. (~_~) I'm afraid that if i slept alone, i might not be able to wake up and wish everyone goodbye or worst apologies for my wrongdoings.. Ya Allah panjangkan lah umur hamba Mu..

5. I'm hot! huhu.. seriously i cud sleep with full-blast air-cond, plus 1 kipas kaki (berdiri) without my duvet for 4hours... I had a swollen nose (like the clown nose) and my nose is having it's run every day.( u got what i mean?) ahh.. me and tissue now is like Aur & Tebing..

6. I'm clingy to Ted.. Whoaaa malu la wei citer kat sini.. hehe.. but it's true... hehe.. Orr.. maybe it's not me.. it's the baby.. =D (alasan kaver malu) i wish i cud be in his pocket, so that he'll take me everywhere..

7. I'm lazy (more that before. haha)

8. Children / Kid like me more than before. especially babies.. not just girl.. the boy also.. So, practically i'd heard many comments on what my baby gonna be.. hehe.. =D luv to hear all the telltales.. There's 1 day, this boy (around 3y.o) at my house.. he supposed to be going to the direction of his house, but when i passed him by, he just turned around and follow me.. hehe.. Shweett..

9. I always had this urge to cry.. "Cry on my shoulder..."

10. I still feel shy whenever i need to talk to the tummy (bby).. And normally i can't speak malay.. hahaha.. and normally i'll be talking more to myself in my head instead to the tummy (bby)..

11. I wonder how will i look when the time comes... Yelah.. tengah kau sakit giler.. camne leerr agaknye muka time tu.. huhu.. am practising the position, breathing technique and exercising time tengah contraction.. tapi... terbayang.. camne kalau tengah2 kat ofis.. Alangkan sakit2 skit2 ni pun kekadang muke aku tak boleh blah.. huhuh... Tapi time tu, it will be me + Ted + mama/papa/mama/abah je yang ade kan.. hehe.. takde la malu sangat.. if my sisters were to be there.. aduhh..

Hurm.. Sometimes, you just have to brave the live in front of you instead of holding back.. I wish.. I cud be always be positive.. I pray that I will be all healthy throughout this wonderful journey..

* Ted is having ptd exam this weekend.. Hahahaha.. kena bace buku teks tebal giler pasal Malaysia... Hahahahah.. sbnrnya aku yang neves lebih.. =P

** update @ 4pm: I had tears in my eyes, when k B informed her son has graduated & akan angkat sumpah esok to become a Doctor.. i had tears in my eyes.. coz i feel proud too.. (even i hardly talked to him.. yelah dahla budak ni baye adik aku.. penyegan pulak..)(~_~) confirm this must be hormones punya hal.. huhu...